Tuesday, September 22, 2009
When I was putting the girls to bed tonight I realized that I didn't relax and enjoy them at all today. I know that every day can't be all fun and games, but today I had complete tunnel vision and only focused on doing errands, cleaning up the house, wrangling the dishes, organizing the insane pile of clothes that's been accumulating on the bottom of our closet, doing paperwork, and paying bills. I got a lot done, but you know what? I didn't play with the girls at all, I didn't laugh with them, I said "I'm busy," a lot, and I spent an awful lot of time ignoring them. I just generally sucked as a mama. Ugh. Why do I do that? It's not like the world would have come crashing down if I had just relaxed and focused on the girls in between chores. Whatever... tomorrow, right? Tomorrow I can do better. I'm writing this as a reminder (kind of a written slap in the head). I can smile, laugh, and hug at least as often as I load a dish in the damn dishwaser. I can balance things better. Because, come on, no one will ever look back and say "wowee, that house sure was clean," but we will remember the fun nature walks we took, the hilarious art projects we attempted, and the new recipes we tried together.